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Monday, December 15, 2008

TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,
HE LIVED ALL ALONE,
IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF
PLASTER AND STONE.

I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY
WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,
AND TO SEE JUST WHO
IN THIS HOME DID LIVE.

I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,
A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,
NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,
NOT EVEN A TREE.

NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,
JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,
ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES
OF FAR DISTANT LANDS.

WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,
AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,
A SOBER THOUGHT
CAME THROUGH MY MIND.

FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,
IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,
I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,
ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.

THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,
SILENT, ALONE,
CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR
IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.

THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,
THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,
NOT HOW I PICTURED
A UNITED STATES SOLDIER.

WAS THIS THE HERO
OF WHOM I'D JUST READ?
CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,
THE FLOOR FOR A BED?

I REALIZED THE FAMILIES
THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,
OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS
WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.

SOON ROUND THE WORLD,
THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,
AND GROWNUPS WOULD CELEBRATE
A BRIGHT CHRISTMAS DAY.

THEY ALL ENJOYED FREEDOM
EACH MONTH OF THE YEAR,
BECAUSE OF THE SOLDIERS,
LIKE THE ONE LYING HERE.

I COULDN'T HELP WONDER
HOW MANY LAY ALONE,
ON A COLD CHRISTMAS EVE
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME.

THE VERY THOUGHT
BROUGHT A TEAR TO MY EYE,
I DROPPED TO MY KNEES
AND STARTED TO CRY.

THE SOLDIER AWAKENED
AND I HEARD A ROUGH VOICE,
'SANTA DON'T CRY,
THIS LIFE IS MY CHOICE;

I FIGHT FOR FREEDOM,
I DON'T ASK FOR MORE,
MY LIFE IS MY GOD,
MY COUNTRY, MY CORPS.

THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER
AND DRIFTED TO SLEEP,
I COULDN'T CONTROL IT,
I CONTINUED TO WEEP.

I KEPT WATCH FOR HOURS,
SO SILENT AND STILL
AND WE BOTH SHIVERED
FROM THE COLD NIGHT'S CHILL.

I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE
ON THAT COLD, DARK, NIGHT,
THIS GUARDIAN OF HONOR
SO WILLING TO FIGHT.

THEN THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER,
WITH A VOICE SOFT AND PURE,
WHISPERED, 'CARRY ON SANTA,
IT'S CHRISTMAS DAY, ALL IS SECURE.'

ONE LOOK AT MY WATCH,
AND I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT.
'MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIEND,!
AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT.'

This poem was written by a Marine.


Sunday, December 14, 2008

well, i guess i should finally fill in everyone (corri/em) on what's going on with my life.  after the latest stress fracture i was told that the i pretty much was done with the marine corps so i was going to move out to north carolina in early 2009 to live with a friend of mine who is stationed there.  well about a month or so ago i got a phone call from the captain asking me to come in and talk with him.  well turns out i still have another shot so we sat and talked about whether this would be the right thing for me or not.  well, about a week before i had someone ask me what my dream job was and i told them, well, that's not an option for me anymore so i've moved on to a different idea.  well, now i was sitting there with another shot at my dream job and i was debating not taking it.  mainly because i felt bad bailing on steve.  but the more i thought about it, i figured he would understand so i made the decision to get healthy and reapply for the marine corps.

i also decided to make some more changes because i didn't want to just stay where i was at (living at home in auburn, working at the same job, etc.) so i made the decision i was going to try to move to seattle so that it would be easier to train with the marine corps and better prepare myself.  i also figured i'd try to get a job up closer to wherever i lived.  well last saturday i woke up early and packed all my stuff and moved up to seattle.  i had found a cheap place to live in a decent neighborhood so i applied, got it and have been living up here for a little over a week.  i'm still working on getting a closer job, so right now i'm still commuting but things are going pretty good.  i really enjoy being up here, i get to see my seattle friends a bit more often, i'm closer to church, and have made some new friends and built new relationships.  it's been really good, so hopefully now i can just get word that i'm going to get this new job, then i would officially be a "seattleite."  things are definitely kinda crazy in my life, but it seems to bet going pretty well.


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

"Beauty in the Breakdown"

i really like that phrase.  several reasons why: 1). there are a lot of songs that do the "breakdown".  it happens a lot in metal but also in other songs.  this is often my favorite part of songs because it seems like that is when they really bring it.  it's the time to scream as hard as you can, sing as loud as you can, shred like never before, and smash on the drums with reckless abandon.  it often is the most emotional part of the song as the artist(s) seems to bring everything.  i love it.  2). in life there are times where everything just seems to collapse (break down), everything seems as bad as it could ever be, but then there's that moment when you realize it's all worth it.  it could be something unexpected or just something overlooked because of what state of mind you might have been in.  that revelation can make all of it worth it.  it also seems that God will wait until you are at the lowest point before he shows his plans for you.  when you feel like there's nothing left you can be open to so much more.

look for the beauty in the breakdown...


Friday, November 14, 2008

i took a chance.

so far so good. 

just gotta enjoy life and not think about it so much.


Sunday, November 09, 2008

you gotta take chances in life. 

i took one tonight.  i don't know that things went so great. 

i'll know more in a few days. 

some times i just think too much and end up acting like an idiot. 

dammit.



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